Before 10.

I played my cousin street fighter online in the living room earlier today. My whole family was having dinner and were watching me play. He beat me pretty badly in front of my whole family. I was really embarrassed and they all lost their appetites because all of a sudden i became gross to them.

Then my mom looked at me and I looked at her. And in her eyes, i saw a single tear roll down her cheek down to her trembling lips. I tried to fight back my tears, but i couldnt, like my street fight against my cousin, i lost that too. I covered my face with my arms to hide my pain and I ran. I ran upstairs into the shower and curled up and continued sobbing on the cold tiled floor. Then I shampooed and conditioned my hair.

and also...

I am absolutely in love with this song. It is beautiful.

Ennio Morricone - Un Amico



Im going to bed now. Its early and im excited. Excited not to be sleeping when the sun is coming out to hug the world with harmful uv rays. Hopefully my sleeping will be back to normal.

Goodnight. less than 3